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I don't really have any idea what I'm doing right now. I don't feel very good and would really just like to go home. I have a ton of stuff to carry on the bus and I Don't Wanna. I also really want to sell a lot of happenings books, and even more I want to get a job but I can't seem to do that and it sucks. I'm not having a very super day. My boyfriend and I got in a fight last
I'll continue in a second i gots ta ad my teacher and groupies.
K I'm back. Anyways. My boyfriend and I got in a fight last night so I'm all uptight and I don't know which way is up and I'm kinda get a head ache from all this loud talking but anyways I'm just going to keep writing in run on sentences because I don't really know why but I'm going to since I'm kind of already just typing anything that comes to mind, no joke. I want to go home and take a shower I feel really dirty right now and I'm not liking it at all. I guess this blogging thing won't be so bad it's just I uh... Forgot what I was going to say. For some reason I didn't like blogging last year so I've never really had a great...view? of it. Oh, and I'm not usually this boring I will actually right stuff I just have a bad headache and what not and so yeah... What? Hmmm... I really need to get a job and sell happenings books and get money somehow and start applying to colleges and start studying for the ACT again and did i mention that i have a headache? Yeah i stopped putting my i's in capital letters because it's just getting tiring. Not that i'm not already tired because I am. Oh hey look i put the i in capital letters but then i didn't again and again just now. Seriously. I feel really stupid right now because everyone's writing all this really fun, good stuff and I'm sitting here pretty much not writing anything because i'm kind of useless at this current point in time. As usual. But not really. =[ I don't wanna break up with ben. Noooooooooooooooooooo joke. I'm just tired of fighting with him. I really just realized that I complain a lot except i know i complain a lot but only when i get in this type of attitude usually i try to be pretty independent and get things done and what not. But seriously, I need to get a job. Really bad. I have no life or friends and i'm not exagurating and i did not just spell that right but i'm too out of it to go get my word speller thingy from my bag right now as you probably already know. Yesterday was semi-good because i sold quite a few happenings books around the neighborhood and told a few people with kids that i babysit but now i feel pretty useless. I would like to go home and take a shower, then mark all the important pages in the happenings books then write a list of them, color coded and seperated by family things, things for children, teens, dads, moms, etc. and i want to sell more happenings books. I want to sell lots and lots and lots and lots of them. Like a Wholeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee bunch. Because i have nothing else to do in my life right now because i'm done with all my homework and what not... I just remembered that there's free food at the cafeteria tonight for bandies but now i'm not really sure if i wanna go because i'm in such a crappy mood. I like, don't want to talk to anyone because i feel pathetic and don't want to rub it off on anyone else. Plus whenever people see you like this they always think of you as that whenever you come up again and i'm not always like this i don't even know how to describe this mood but i get in it sometimes and i never really know how to get out of it. Sometimes sleeping works, sometimes doing something progressive works, sometimes just sitting in my house looking out the window works...except then i'm not really out of the mood i'm just not thinking about it as much. I'm just... for lack of a better adjective... Blah.
Very, Very... Blah.